Seulement II

I'm trying to figure out what I'm doing wrong. I don't know what it is that I could be doing wrong, but it has to be something because things are not going the way that they should be. It is coming around to that time of year again. The time when you should have something/someone who keeps you warm at night. You should have a connection with someone. I feel like a failure all the time. I feel like I'm not getting anywhere, not able to do anything. I feel as though I'm missing something and that I am losing out on something I should have.
What makes me so different from all the happy people. I have to listen to now, not one, but two co-workers who are head over heels for some guys and all they do is talk about how great things are and how it is just going to keep going forwards. I have a feeling that they are going to be getting married to these two guys, and it makes me feel so left behind. Especially when they're saying that I should hang out with them, and their boyfriends. Wow, way to go third wheel. I have no interest in doing that at all. I don't feel like being the one who drags them down, or the one who has to sit around and deal with them all being so happy. I'm not happy.

I think that about sums it up. I'm not happy.