Well, Happy Halloween. I had to start with that. Worshiping the "devil's holiday" according to Eva (my co-worker) anyway. There isn't too much going on. We (Lauren and I) spent our day just hanging out and chilling before we played with little children and gave out candy at the mall.
Yesterday was a 5,600$ day in the store. I did 1,500$ online, and then did a 3,800$ sale and an 800$ sale plus a bunch of hundred - two hundred dollar sales throughout the evening. I did awesome. Today my boss gave me $50 because of how good a day we had on Friday! W00t. I'm awesome.
I didn't get to see Mike again today, but, he texted when he got home from OK yesterday and we've chatted a bit tonight as well. He's out in Baltimore pirating it up. Sounds like fun, but I'm actually quite a bit happier being at home ready to get to bed. I'm so tired! And, I have to work all day tomorrow. I'll start with coffee in the morning and go from there. next week I have to being going to the gym more regularly -- especially because the season is over. It is time to make sure I stay in shape over the winter. It is what I really do need, and I've put on a few pounds (4-5) since I got back from CA. It was a weird few months for me. A week of being sick with lyme, and then three weeks on antibiotics for it, followed by another week of recovery. From there I popped something in my knee, which really hurt and probably wasn't good. So I was out of playing disk and out of shape for almost two months, which included me going to CA and hanging out there for a week. Now, I'm back and though I've been playing disk, it is just not a good enough workout to do that twice a week. So -- it is time to make use of this gym membership I'm paying for...
I read something today that got me thinking. I wasn't a book, though I'm still thinking about The Ice Queen and how it effected me while I was reading it, and once I'd finished. I was reading a post about whether or not being bi-polar was a good thing. I mean yes, you get extraordinarily happy about things, and ridiculously depressed and you feel like you're turned off from the world. Maybe it is a good thing to be happy when you're un-involved in the world. Perhaps that is a good way to be. Maybe if you don't notice the way you're feeling -- or the way you're hurting people. Maybe then, maybe then bi-polar disorder is a good thing. So get medicated, or fight it, but I think that you end up hurting people because you are excited about a situation or a relationship, and then you aren't. And you hurt the other person. You pull away and they are left with no answers, and you break them.
So no, bi-polar disorder isn't a good way to live. You'll end up alienating yourself and you'll be unable to continue to constantly push away people and then pull them back. Sooner or later they will realize that you will continue the same pattern of behavior and you will then be unreliable and worthless to them. You will only bring them misery, your misery.
Does that make you happy? I mean, if you're happy with the idea of life being blase, then fine. If you have no drive to go forwards then perhaps you are happy with that. I could never be happy being 'stuck' somewhere. But, if you have a lack of ambition, which is also a side effect of bi-polar disorder, then, fine, be happy with being bi-polar. But, I would imagine that you'll regret being in the situation you are in in a few years.
The other thing to add is the question of whether or not drug use has something to do with the lack of ambition. Using drugs changes your brain chemistry, and can lead you to have a completely different personality than you once had. *shrugs* I guess that sucks for everyone you. People will find other friends, other relationships, and other lives. They'll move on, but what will you do?
*ponder ponder*
kk, that's it for the night,
~M
Saturday, October 31, 2009
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
A Final Goodbye
Everything else can wait, lets get to the important thing:
Tonight we say goodbye to Mr. Breeden, the father of Brian Breeden -- a very close friend of mine. I've known Brian for years now, though we never seem to see the time passing. We have passed it in company and in phone calls. We have been the ropes to bind each other to sanity. We have fought through hardships, but none such as what has come to pass this last weekend.
Saturday morning his father went into cardiac arrest and subsequently into a coma. It was confirmed this morning by the doctors that he would not recover from his heart attack and would never again regain consciousness.
Though I did not know him personally, I do know his son. And, in that alone I know he was a good man -- he raised an amazing son. Please keep the Breeden family in your hearts tonight, and always. It is terrifying to think of a loss such as this and I know Brian, as strong as he is, will still cherish every bit of support and comfort we can offer to him.
May he rest in peace.
Tonight we say goodbye to Mr. Breeden, the father of Brian Breeden -- a very close friend of mine. I've known Brian for years now, though we never seem to see the time passing. We have passed it in company and in phone calls. We have been the ropes to bind each other to sanity. We have fought through hardships, but none such as what has come to pass this last weekend.
Saturday morning his father went into cardiac arrest and subsequently into a coma. It was confirmed this morning by the doctors that he would not recover from his heart attack and would never again regain consciousness.
Though I did not know him personally, I do know his son. And, in that alone I know he was a good man -- he raised an amazing son. Please keep the Breeden family in your hearts tonight, and always. It is terrifying to think of a loss such as this and I know Brian, as strong as he is, will still cherish every bit of support and comfort we can offer to him.
May he rest in peace.
Monday, October 26, 2009
The End of "The Ice Queen"
I finished "The Ice Queen" and man, has it rendered me illiterate and unable to form a cohesive thought.
It was excellent. I would recommend it to everyone. It is very good -- an unforgettable story which is different and makes you think. It combines so many interesting aspects, like chaos theory interwoven into fairy tales. It was super cool when they were including a bunch of things about lightening strikes and strike victims. wonderful writing. Overall A for the grade on this one. I really enjoyed it. I had trouble putting it down and spent the evening, at work, reading the end of this. It was nothing which was expected, but it was all the more challenging for the writer and exceptional for the reader!
Go get, and read, this book.
It was excellent. I would recommend it to everyone. It is very good -- an unforgettable story which is different and makes you think. It combines so many interesting aspects, like chaos theory interwoven into fairy tales. It was super cool when they were including a bunch of things about lightening strikes and strike victims. wonderful writing. Overall A for the grade on this one. I really enjoyed it. I had trouble putting it down and spent the evening, at work, reading the end of this. It was nothing which was expected, but it was all the more challenging for the writer and exceptional for the reader!
Go get, and read, this book.
Dates :-)
I guess I need to write I've got a SECOND date with Mike Saturday hopefully!
It has been lots of fun chatting with him today, he likes to stay in touch! We had a great time last night hanging out and having coffee. He's away for the week, so we've been texting back and forth today, and he wants to see me again this weekend, hopefully Saturday!
I like this one a lot. I'll update more later!
It has been lots of fun chatting with him today, he likes to stay in touch! We had a great time last night hanging out and having coffee. He's away for the week, so we've been texting back and forth today, and he wants to see me again this weekend, hopefully Saturday!
I like this one a lot. I'll update more later!
Sunday, October 25, 2009
DATES
Well, I've had a couple dates in the last few days. I'm super excited about the latest one. I went out with Jeff, a used-to-be army guy who has come out of the army and is now starting a new job working with computers, and Mike, a great conversationalist who has a ton of potential and is 26 (tall, cute, and ambitious).
I'll write more later. We'll see if Mike stays in touch! I sure hope so, but he'll be out of town for this whole week. *crosses fingers* this guy was a really good time. I had a great time hanging out with him, and I hope to see him again next weekend!
<3
~M
I'll write more later. We'll see if Mike stays in touch! I sure hope so, but he'll be out of town for this whole week. *crosses fingers* this guy was a really good time. I had a great time hanging out with him, and I hope to see him again next weekend!
<3
~M
Friday, October 23, 2009
"The Ice Queen" By Alice Hoffman
I've begun yet another book. lol.
"The Ice Queen" By Alice Hoffman. Welcome to a world of interesting wishes gone wrong. An 8 year old girl wishes her mother won't come home, because her mother is spending the night out on her birthday. Her mother dies on the way to the party -- ice slick on the drive there. Here is an 8 year old who blames herself, her actions, and her words. A girl who, upon learning of her mother's death, leaves behind all her toys because she doesn't believe that she deserves them.
She stops being able to make any sort of connection with people. She becomes a librarian obsessed with death. She helps a local cop solve homicide cases, and has sex with him in the back seat of his car. Not because she wants him, but because she just wants sex. When he starts to love her, she hightails it away and runs from him.
She's now on her way down south to live with her brainiac brother who is very well educated and studies meteorology. He has taken her from her stupor in their grandmother's old house and re-located her down south with him. On their way down south, they encounter a thunderstorm. Her brother is happily writing down details of the thunderstorm and she says aloud that she wishes she'd get struck by lightning. There it was, another ill-fated wish, said too quickly to take back.
A few months later, she is struck by lightning, and her whole world changes.
She loses the ability to see the color red.
that is it so far, she's now getting on with her disabilities...and she's joined her brother's studies on people who have been struck by lightning.
~M
"The Ice Queen" By Alice Hoffman. Welcome to a world of interesting wishes gone wrong. An 8 year old girl wishes her mother won't come home, because her mother is spending the night out on her birthday. Her mother dies on the way to the party -- ice slick on the drive there. Here is an 8 year old who blames herself, her actions, and her words. A girl who, upon learning of her mother's death, leaves behind all her toys because she doesn't believe that she deserves them.
She stops being able to make any sort of connection with people. She becomes a librarian obsessed with death. She helps a local cop solve homicide cases, and has sex with him in the back seat of his car. Not because she wants him, but because she just wants sex. When he starts to love her, she hightails it away and runs from him.
She's now on her way down south to live with her brainiac brother who is very well educated and studies meteorology. He has taken her from her stupor in their grandmother's old house and re-located her down south with him. On their way down south, they encounter a thunderstorm. Her brother is happily writing down details of the thunderstorm and she says aloud that she wishes she'd get struck by lightning. There it was, another ill-fated wish, said too quickly to take back.
A few months later, she is struck by lightning, and her whole world changes.
She loses the ability to see the color red.
that is it so far, she's now getting on with her disabilities...and she's joined her brother's studies on people who have been struck by lightning.
~M
Thursday, October 22, 2009
The Book List
I have nine books on my reading list, while I'm also attempting to re-read the Anita Blake Vampire Hunter Series. I can't wait to read more of them, but I also have these books I 'should' read, to stay on top of the current trends, and so on and so forth.
1. "The Pact" by Jodi Picoult.
2. "Nineteen Minutes" by Jodi Picoult
3. "Picture Perfect" By Jodi Picoult
4. "The Time Traveler's Wife" By Audrey Niffenegger
5. "The Ice Queen" By Alice Hoffman
6. "The Host" By Stephenie Meyer
7. "Impossible" By Nancy Werlin
8. "Pride and Prejudice and Zombies" re-released by quirk press
9. "The Memory Keeper's Daughter" by Kim Edwards
I think that is about it. I'm not sure which one I want to read first, but there is also another one I wanted to read, something about lace codes. "The Lace Reader" By Brunonia Barry.
I'll write on these each as I read through them. I'm having a crisis of conscience about number 8. I'm not sure if I am offended that they did this, or if I think it is hilarious...
1. "The Pact" by Jodi Picoult.
2. "Nineteen Minutes" by Jodi Picoult
3. "Picture Perfect" By Jodi Picoult
4. "The Time Traveler's Wife" By Audrey Niffenegger
5. "The Ice Queen" By Alice Hoffman
6. "The Host" By Stephenie Meyer
7. "Impossible" By Nancy Werlin
8. "Pride and Prejudice and Zombies" re-released by quirk press
9. "The Memory Keeper's Daughter" by Kim Edwards
I think that is about it. I'm not sure which one I want to read first, but there is also another one I wanted to read, something about lace codes. "The Lace Reader" By Brunonia Barry.
I'll write on these each as I read through them. I'm having a crisis of conscience about number 8. I'm not sure if I am offended that they did this, or if I think it is hilarious...
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