MUSIC

        So music and writing are taking over my life. I almost wrote that music and writing is because they are currently working as a semi-collective unit of the two things. It has been quite amazing that I've been trying so hard to figure things out. I mean, how do you forget what seems like a lifetime? Have you ever realized that you just cannot escape your memories?
       So I've been spending my time throwing my music in through my ears. I've been discovering all sorts of new music that I think I might be in love with. I really adore "Love and Theft" and I've also found that I really adore some of the music from my past. "Skillet" one of the new groups I've found. I'll reiterate the main fact, "Wait, how on earth is all the normal music about something depressing?" It just is. They write about things that people can identify with..."Does it scare you to realize that as a whole, people now identify with a more depressing form of a once happy medium?"
      There are some days where I really wonder what we've come to as a class of people who listen to music about sex, and murder, and unhappiness. Things are all about the constant depression that people feel inside. I think it is almost safe to say that we have been very socially situated to realize that we cannot identify with being happy as much as we can with being depressed. Why on earth is that the case?
      Right now, what I want the most, is a happy distraction, like one of my friend's exs... Though that would be an easy accomplishment, to me, it isn't really what I want. There is a really hot guy who seems to stop in and flirt lately, perhaps it is time to test out Keyonta's new theory. Either he's trying to ask me out, or hire me. LOL. Perhaps I should pursue the whole asking me out part :-). That would be pretty neat.
    What does it mean to have built a lifetime of memories only to try and forget? I assure you that I built more than what I had. I built a future. and I lost it.